Poison for the Fairies, mostly

I'm still alive! I want to write about some different things, but I'm also very tired.

Things like, why should I bother posting when there are so many more important things in the world, how am I going to survive on a student's budget, meeting my new lolita community, things I've bought recently (pre quitting my job), quitting my job, etc.

It's unlikely I'll write about all those things. However, something else!

I watched a movie recently called Poison for the Fairies. What a good movie! It was recommended in the comments section of Rufflechat when someone asked about aesthetic movies. 

One of my favourite things about this movie, besides the aesthetics and getting to see a movie created by another culture was that the faces of adults were never shown (except in two very specific circumstances). I loved to watch how the camera work was done to avoid showing their faces, while allowing them to move around in the shot. 

My husband didn't care for the movie, which is too bad. He doesn't share my passion for uncanny things. 

I've actually got a list going, of movies that I love for their aesthetic. Maybe, I will make a separate page for them. I need to update my book list too. And also complete my registration at the library here! The "ToDo" list is never ending. 

 Above is a photo taken at the meetup I went to two weekends ago. It was small and very casual which was nice and not so overwhelming. One of the girls was really into taking photos. Much appreciated! A big thank you to her, she was great. I just need to learn how to pose better ^^;

Moving and Consequences

I moved to a new city!

I've only been here for a few days, but so far the area I am in seems super nice (which, it really ought to be considering my location).

All my lolita paraphernalia is packed away still. My mom is coming in a few days and she will help me unpack and organize. 

Unfortunately, this city is WAY more expensive than where I previously lived. It's likely I won't have nearly as much disposable income. It's a good thing that my wardrobe is already substantial and I still have many craft supplies to create things for myself. 

I am now in a city with what appears to be an active lolita community, which is very cool. I hope I can make some friends through the fashion. Does this mean I will wear lolita more frequently? My mind goes from wearing lolita more frequently to perhaps needing to buy more things to the whole lack of money situation. Realistically, I don't think I do need to buy anything new. It would be a fun challenge to see how many unique coordinates I can come up with with the things I already own. Do you think I could come up with a years worth of coordinates? I have somewhere around 35 main pieces right now, including skirts. It could be possible (really? that's like 10 unique coordinates per main piece). I am definitely pro wearing the same coordinate multiple times. But, part of the fun is creating new coordinates... maybe I should try it.

Updated wish list

Wish list is updated. I'm not actively searching for most of them. They are the items I'm currently fancying. Mostly, nothing was removed except marshmallow bunny in white (I decided I am happy with it in pink) and the Yolanda Berry River triangular headscarf which I have since acquired. There are actually a few accessories that I didn't add to the page. Mostly just things that match with stuff that I either already have or is on the list.

Yesterday, I spent the whole day reconstructing my old Squirrel Party OP into a skirt. It was totally destroyed. Not even nicely dismantled. After all the length I lost because of this, it's still kind of long on me.
The skirt turned out okay. It's a bit too big on me. I added some ribbon to have a tiny bit of corset lacing in the back.
Waist ties and bow on the front still need to be sorted out. Not sure about adding waist ties. I wasn't sure about adding the original bow back on the front either, but my sewing job on the front band is not super great so I think adding the bow is best. There is also a spot on the front that was totally torn that I stitched back together that needs to be covered anyway. The bow will be sewed on, i.e. not detachable because it's rather large and I do not want it to be floppy. It's possible to use multiple pins but I'm not sure I'll ever want to wear it without the bow. Must think about it.
I feel more confident about elastic waist bands now, at least.

In other news, I'm moving in a month. I'd like to do a room tour, but my room is an absolute mess the past few weeks. Will I have the energy to clean it? Two of my previous rooms, I wanted to do a tour  video of and never did. I regret it. :( Maybe I should just do it with a messy room because that's reality.

This month went by crazy fast.

Yesterday, when I was working on sewing the skirt, it went by crazy fast especially. At the end of the day, I felt like I'd only just woken up.

I have been having a hard time falling asleep. Maybe anxiety about moving. Last night, I had a dream where so many different bad things happened that it's almost comical. Like all my anxieties coming out into a single dream. Glad real life isn't like that :)

Since I'm moving, it makes it really easy to not spend money. Don't want to buy things and then have them shipped to the wrong address! I will have mail forwarding in place of course, but I feel more secure having things sent to the correct address initially. Actually, I made an order at the beginning of the month (I think?) for a MeLikesTea petticoat and bloomers (yay!). It will put mail forwarding to the test. Their website said something like, wait until you are sure of your address to order because we can't change the shipping address for you after your orders been placed but the bloomers were a pre-order and I'm not sure how often those things happen.

Also, sharing two prints that I added to my wishlist.

Fantastic Carnival by Angelic Pretty. I really love these carousel animals and the banners and the balloons. I don't love any of the cuts released, but they are tolerable. I cannot decide whether I prefer the OP or JSK. It's definitely about the print for me with this one. I think the pink colourway provides the best contrast with the print.

Melody Toys by Angelic Pretty. I've got a few musical prints and I'd like to add this one to my collection. I love the shade of blue. The horse with the drum is so cute. 

Okay, that's it.

Item Feature #2

The item I am featuring in this post is Angelic Pretty's Cutie Heart Blouse. It's super cute! The heart cutout on the chest is very cute and especially so with what looks like a dot tulle fabric overlay. The detachable sleeves are a great feature. I really love the overall cut of the blouse. Something about the shape of the sleeves and chest area, perhaps. Plus, there are embellishing bows in all the right places. I couldn't choose between the white or pink colourway, so I'm sharing both images. This blouse is from 2008, is the second release of this design.

How my Buying Habits are Changing with Age of my Wardrobe

Here is an observation I had recently: I've bought all my highly desired dresses. You can look on my wishlist and see there are still dresses on there, but I'm not actively seeking any of them at this time. [Some of those dresses I already own the print of, but not the colourway I wanted] I have actually seen Doll's Tea Party come up for sale a few times, but didn't buy it. Besides not being a high priority item, the material is a problem. Chiffon runs the risk of ... runs. Similarly, Charlotte's Bear is polyester and I really don't like the feeling of cheap polyester. I don't know if that is the case with that print, but I don't want to spend hundreds of dollars finding out.

Currently, I am building up my collection of tops. Blouses and cutsews mostly. What happened to wanting a minimal wardrobe? I'd still love one, but I don't think it's a realistic goal especially considering I am invested into two substyles (sweet and classic). (Three if you count old school.) I can use blouses to maximize my current wardrobe. 

Mail is absolutely slow. Who knows when my recent orders from Japan will arrive? They've been sitting at a status of "processed" in Tokyo for over two weeks. I was thinking about making a video showing what is supposed to be coming in the mail instead of an actual haul (as a sort of joke).  

Once I am finished acquiring all the tops that I feel I need, I wonder what I will move onto next. Accessories maybe? 

A side note of something a bit concerning, the arms seem a bit tight on some of my clothes. I have been working out but my arms don't seem any bigger to me. Even the chest on my Marshmallow Bunny jumperskirt felt a bit tight. Scary things. 

I Have Not Felt Like Interacting Online

I haven't posted in a while.
I haven't posted on Instagram much lately either.

I had a rough week or two.
This other weird thing happened. I didn't like many coordinates I saw posted by others. Nothing was inspiring me. Maybe it was just because I was in a funk.


Or maybe I'm looking for something very specific in the fashion now?
Is it authenticity? I don't know how to describe it. A certain coordinate, gives me a certain feeling.
I'm not sure I ever get that feel about my own coordinates, even.

A very simple coordinate I wore last week. 

What else. I have a package with Japonica. I'm a fool and asked them to buy one more thing for me. Restrictions on shipping inclines me to expect they wont be able to ship it. T_T Maybe people will think I should not be complaining because there are people dying. I'm not especially complaining, more like lamenting over my choices. We each in life experience our own troubles.

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Hopefully, I can start to wear lolita fashion a bit more again. I want to wear it tomorrow, but we are supposed to go for a walk in the afternoon. Ideally, I would wear lolita on the walk. This is exactly my perfect vision of the fashion. Myself in the forest or a field. Footwear presents a problem, of course. I want to be okay with ruining my clothes.

I did a flat lay of a coordinate idea last night. At least "the gears are turning".

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Also, unrelated but I have been exercising and stretching every day and I'm way more bendy than I used to be! (which was actually already quite bendy) I can place my palms firmly on the ground in a forward fold. My feet are able to lay flat on the ground in a downward dog pose. 

Some Crafting

Before the pandemic became serious, I went to the fabric store to buy some crafting supplies to keep me occupied. Some things I bought were specifically for creating an accessory to go with my Marshmallow Bunny <3 jumperskirt from Angelic Pretty.

I wanted to make something using dark green because there's dark green in the print. It's a bit unusual for this colour to be present in a pastel print. Last year (or maybe it was two years ago), when I was originally trying to decide if I wanted to buy Marshmallow Bunny or not, I decided against it because of the green. At least that's what I remember being the deciding factor. Now, I've come to realize that I love green in lolita clothes.

Voila.

The greens do not match perfectly, but this is fine with me. I am not very concerned with colours matching perfectly these days. I do really appreciate the people that pay close attention to that kind of detail, though.

The bow is light enough that it can be held in my hair with a bobby pin. It would probably look very good clipped to the strap of the dress as well.

I also bought the green ribbon with the intention to make something for my Classic Fairy Tales dress (also from Angelic Pretty). I haven't thought about what I'll make yet. At one point, I was considering making the bows on the ends of the bow (pictured above) removable with little clips so that I could replace them with a different colour that would suit Classic Fairy Tales. However, I loved the look of the blue ribbon going down the tails of the bow. Blue doesn't suit Classic Fairy Tales at all, so I ditched the idea (though I thought it would be a great idea otherwise).

I want to make at least one more accessory to go with Marshmallow Bunny. Today, I looked at the lace at the bottom of the dress and compared it to some crocheted lace I have. It seems to be a good match. One of the blue fabrics I bought (pictured) looks like it will go well with the print.

The real lace on the dress is an embroidered lace (? not sure what this type of lace is actually called!), not crocheted.  Normally, I do not like to mix lace types in coordinates but I am starting to deviate from that standard of mine. Experimentation is a good thing!

Anyway, I am thinking I will use this crocheted lace and fabric to make my next accessory for the dress. I have an idea, but I don't know how to explain it.


Today I tried wearing a jumperskirt without a blouse and with only a bolero instead. I saw someone do this with Happy Garden high waist jumperskirt and I thought it looked quite nice so I wanted to try it.

Not wearing a petticoat because comfort reasons (another reason to get a petticoat from MeLikesTea. I heard viole is a very nice and soft material). The neckline of this dress is too high to matter whether I've got a blouse on or not anyway. A very comfy outfit. I've cut my bangs myself btw.